At the Moment #5/2019

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Oh hello,

this post is my own little birthday celebration and if you like grab a coffee, enjoy a piece of my birthday cake and read along (and if you are interested here are my thoughts of 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018).

.I think:
… I don’t feel as old as the number is saying. I recently participated in a survey and I was falling into the group 36-50 years. Really?! I feel definitely more like 29 than 49.

.I like:
… my balcony and the new flower beds I planted. I really hope they will survive a bit longer than the rest. For now they make me happy every time I look at them.

.I don’t like:
… wasting time and yet I do it a lot.

.I feel:
… not as great as I would like. Too much tension, too much anxiety, too much noise, too much feelings in general. I’d like to scale all that down.

.I wear:
… hopefully more homemade clothes. Have sewed a new shirt and working on two more. Other than that my current color theme is still white blue blacks and greys. Missing coral in the mix but can’t find decent stuff or fabric.

.I need:
… motivation, momentum or something like that. It feels a bit like drifting. I do move into a direction but not quite sure if the path is right or if it needs correcting later on.

.I’m annoyed by:
… all the thing I’d like to change and can’t. It’s really frustrating to not know how to and not being able to find a way. Maybe I don’t want them bad enough. Maybe I just don’t see the way I need to walk because no-one has taught me to see the signs.

.I want:
… to find the perfect present for Mr. ♡

.I hear:
…too much noise. I wouldn’t mind listening to the wind in the trees or the crashing of waves.

.I’m making:
… a list of 100 things to do in 1.000 days. My plan is to achieve it when I hit my milestone birthday. When I started blogging those challenges were a huge hit. I always wanted to start one. Never got around in doing so. No time then the present, right? Feel free to follow along as I build my 100thingsin1000days-list and start crossing things off.

.I eat:
… so many blueberries. Bucketloads. Seriously it’s crazy and I have no idea where this craving comes from. But there are worth things. It’s probably time to make a blueberry cake too.

.I drink:
… coffee, earl grey with a dash of milk, green tea – in that order. Every day when being at home. Only then I start the cold drinks. Apple spritz, homemade rhubarb lemonade or iced tea.

.I smell:
… the city, the heat, the tar starting to boil. For a short little while it’s the smell of summer, of freedom of carefree days. But soon it will be of misery, fatigue, stinking with too much human odor mixed with ozone and fumes. And it will be just too much.

.I miss:
… my grandparents. The older I get the more I want to ask them. How funny is it that we appreciate the things only when we don’t have them anymore. That reminds me, I should probably listen more to what my parents say.

.I regret:
… falling into the same patterns over and over.

.I appreciate:
… being able to work from home on my own schedule. Taking a lot of time in the mornings, long walks, reading breaks and sit on my balcony for thinking. I appreciate my clients and everything I learn along the way.

.I trust.
… that my neurologist knows what’s best and that the Botox treatment she is starting for migraine prevention will not effect my looks. I am quite happy with my face.

.I dream:
… of a house by a lake. A balcony with view to a waterfront or some body of water near by. Since this has been on my dream-list twice in a row maybe it’s time to get serious about it.

.I read:
… through my kindle unlimited list. After snatching a deal for three free months I try to read as many books from that list as possible. Other than that this year wasn’t too good reading-wise. Hopefully I will pick a few good ones in the coming months.

or iced tea.

.I smell:
… the city, the heat, the tar starting to boil. For a short little while it’s the smell of summer, of freedom of carefree days. But soon it will be of misery, fatigue, stinking with too much human odor mixed with ozone and fumes. And it will be just too much.

.I miss:
… my grandparents. The older I get the more I want to ask them. How funny is it that we appreciate the things only when we don’t have them anymore. That reminds me, I should probably listen more to what my parents say.

.I regret:
… falling into the same patterns over and over.

.I appreciate:
… being able to work from home on my own schedule. Taking a lot of time in the mornings, long walks, reading breaks and sit on my balcony for thinking. I appreciate my clients and everything I learn along the way.

.I trust.
… that my neurologist knows what’s best and that the Botox treatment she is starting for migraine prevention will not effect my looks. I am quite happy with my face.

.I dream:
… of a house by a lake. A balcony with view to a waterfront or some body of water near by. Since this has been on my dream-list twice in a row maybe it’s time to get serious about it.

.I read:
… through my kindle unlimited list. After snatching a deal for three free months I try to read as many books from that list as possible. Other than that this year wasn’t too good reading-wise. Hopefully I will pick a few good ones in the coming months.

It’s always fun to read previous years once I am done answering the current one. Do you have a similar post? What’s your current mood?

Happy birthday to me and happy day to you

Tobia